Thursday, January 1, 2015
So it's finally 2015! The dawn of a new year, or simply another day in a larger story, no matter how you look at it, my favorite thing about a new year is that it simply feels like a fresh start. In so many ways, it feels like everything that's happened over the past 365 days (or even every other year of your life) has been expunged and we now have a chance to start anew. While we obviously can't start completely over, we can try and change simple things that we don't like about us personally and physically. There are things in life we have no control over, but over the things that pertain to us directly, we do.
I have already mentioned in previous posts how I feel some awesome changes are just around the corner for me and my family and friends, but I am not exactly sure what shape or form those changes will come in. One thing I do know is that in order for any change to occur you must meet it halfway, which is why New Year's resolutions are so important. Now while there is no resolution police force that makes you keep your resolutions, by sharing your resolutions with other people it helps you in feeling like you're being held accountable to keep those resolutions. In a way, anyone reading this is the resolution police.
To be perfectly honest, I have never fully kept any resolution I have ever made, but there is always a first time for everything, and that is why this year I wont just be making one resolution, but multiple. The law of averages dictates that I will at least fulfill one of them. So here I have concocted 5 New Year's resolutions for myself, and I need you all to read them and hold me accountable to meet at least one of them. Can you all do that? Alright, here we go.
1. Lose 20 Pounds
The most cliche of New Year's resolutions, but one that I need to get a better handle of in 2015. I had lost over 30 pounds in 2013 only to put most of it back on in 2014. My goal is to take all of that weight back off in 2015, which means I need to get back to exercising and making the healthy choice when it's meal time rather than the easy choice.
2. Watch 365 Movies I Have Never Seen Before
Whether it's seeing brand new movies in theaters or watching a classic movie that I have not seen, it is my goal in 2015 to watch at least one movie I have never seen every single day. While I know there will be days that I miss here and there, I still want to reach 365 movies by doubling or tripling up on days where I have nothing to do.
3. Stop Being Afraid of Life
This might be the most hard resolution to see a clear path to because it's one that is completely internal, but I cannot tell you how long I have lived in fear and how I despise it. To clarify, I don't despise myself, I despise the fear. My anxiety disorder feels like it's put the life I'm supposed to have on hold for 6 years and I want 2015 to be my breakthrough year where I push through the fear and embrace actually living life for a change. In a lot of ways, I am not sure if I've ever truly lived life because I am such a cautious person, so 2015 is going to be the dawn of living for me.
4. Write and Direct a Feature Length Narrative Film
So I resolved last year to make my first feature length narrative film, and lo and behold I made a feature length film, just not the kind I initially thought I would. While I didn't believe that the documentary I was making was going to be a feature, it did sort of fulfill that resolution, so this year I am going to make the same resolution and hopefully I'll fulfill all of it. I want to make a feature length narrative film. I have multiple scripts that I have been developing, and whether I'm lucky enough to get financing, or I have to finance it myself, I want to produce one of those scripts and make a movie to send out to film festivals to jumpstart my career as a Hollywood moviemaker.
5. Find Distribution for My Documentary
This is the final resolution and its one that is no less important. While my documentary, The Red Barn: A Legacy of Love, is completed, the journey is far from over. We've started submitting to film festivals and I am hoping out of that we can find a distributor to release the film nationwide on some sort of platform. The Red Barn is a genuinely special place and I want as many people as possible to experience it.
With all that said, those are my 2015 resolutions. What are yours?